What The Future Holds
Although we are happy with life, We cannot help but to involve hindsight, what would've been, What I would do if I had my time over again. Ha I of only 24 feel the effects of this, Am I too young to be in thought of hindsight, Others may say I have the world at my fingertips at such an age, Yet others at such an age are not parents. People have told me that the rest of my life can begin when the children are older but will opportunities have been missed by then, What does the future hold...?
The biggest dream that has always been sat on ones frontal lobe is that of the American dream, Hitting the ground running was an understatement given by my step dad in reference to my visit to the states, I have always wanted to live there but unfortunately the event of such an occurrence does not look likely, Which brings me to children, Is it selfish to want to bring them in on my adventure at the young ages of two and five and my eldest of whom has autism and is at a good school with good peers. Is it selfish to expect my partner to support my dream just because it's my dream, Who knows.... Some would say I have made my bed now I must lay in it. I am David Mullens the Dreamer but I would like to be David Mullens living the Dream!
I feel that the U.K is past it's usages for me and my family and that there is not much left here for our future and our future generations, We are a country that is overrun and led by fools and as the prime ministers have bounced over the years from puppet string to puppet string, Bringing our country down weakening our ways from past ways but that is enough of my cynical thoughts of our Government's system for now.
Childhood for me was great, Adolescence on the other hand brought nothing but trouble for myself and my loved ones, forever feeling in debt to them for my troublesome ways, Although some would say that is common in the adolescent way, Yet my little Sister is a Godsend as was my eldest. Perhaps it's a male thing, Perhaps some Psycho analysis would conclude parent separation blah blah blah, Who cares anymore I am the person I am today and have been told nothing should change anymore, perhaps a bit of weight loss eh but hey it's January and everyone has this in mind ha ha!
So what does the future hold, Is this a question only answered by ourselves or have we already been dealt our future and it's just the present but at a later date, If so... I woe for this as it's not how I would like to proceed life should be more than the centrepiece of a roundabout it should include all of the roads that come off of it.
Music, Ahhh Music a serious passion of mine so many influences, so much meaning also leading to my want of residence in America. Blues a favourite of mine, at the heart of the slaves and the southern states, Places I would love to say I have visited, America is such a vast country with a lot of history too all the different influences from all over the world in one large country, The southern states like Mississippi influenced by the french bringing the Cajun community, Much more north like Boston Massachusetts, renowned for the Irish community, California and it's Mexican, Heck the whole country for it's Mexicans, A Whole country that is largely multicultural Which appeals to me so much, These examples are just a few of the many that there are. You can go skiing or snowboarding in the mountains of California in the morning and, sunbathe in the incredible heat in the afternoon, this is what i call incredible! All this could just be me, My infatuation with America and other cultures, Luckily my little sister has the same understanding of America as myself and has the drive and the want to live there too, I hope she makes it, I've every bit of Faith in the Bright girl that is my little Sister and I hope my dreams live on through her. Well This is all from me today more of a waffle about what I think of recurrently. Until next time....
